Day 5

Did not have a good start to the new year...experiencing some drama in the house and it is going to be a rough few months around here. Not a way to try to stay positive and keep a healthy perspective on my new regimen.

I still managed, through stress-induced exhaustion, to get up and take my supplements and meal replacement late this morning. During stressful times I usually don't eat much. I had to force myself to eat some crackers with cheese for lunch - just something quick to put in my stomach. Then, knowing that cheese is high in fat and crackers are loaded with sodium and carbs, the guilt surfaced and I felt like crap. Ugh! That only makes me not want to eat at all. Having been a fitness freak before, I already know that I cannot skip meals. That would be counter-productive. I know your body stores fat in times of deprivation. So - through the stress, anxiety and guilt I will get up and force down another meal replacement shake for dinner.

I was planning on going to get weighed in tomorrow to see if I had made any progress but I think I will just skip that. I need to work on some mental recuperation from all this stress and make sure I stay focused on my goal.

Thanks for reading! I really appreciate all of the positive feedback I am getting. It helps during difficult times like this.

...nothing like a "Keeping up with the Kardashians" marathon to put things in perspective...