Week 5

I haven't been doing a very good job at blogging daily...not to mention that some days I really don't have anything to say (I know, hard to believe). I think I will try for weekly blogs.

So this past week was Week 5.

I weighed in yesterday and I am excited to say that I lost another 2.5 pounds. I now weigh 160.2. I am very happy with my progress. I have worked quite hard. I do my meal replacements and other supplements at least once a day. Most days I actually do a meal replacement shake twice. During this past week I only ate an actual dinner on Monday. All the other days I did a shake for breakfast and dinner and only ate lunch. It is strange - I am not tired of the meal replacement shakes - as a matter of fact I crave them now. They taste sooooo good!

I must say, this is the only regimen that I have stuck with! I am determined! I have lost almost 10 pounds...30 more to go!

Day 22

Today was not a great day for sticking to my regimen...

I had a decent size lunch with intentions of not eating dinner - I was planning on just having a meal replacement shake. When I got out of work I called to remind Matt that I was going to the vet to pick up the dog when he told me his brother Jorge was driving through Albuquerque on his way to El Paso. Jorge wanted to grab dinner at Sadie's before continuing his trip. I have zero will power to refuse dinner at Sadie's! So - I took 3 fat blocking pills and I was off to eat! I really did not eat a lot but what I did eat was far from healthy! Oh well. Tomorrow is another day, right? I think I will stick with all lean protein and fiber the rest of the week. I would like to weigh in again on Saturday but I'm considering waiting until next weekend since I was just weighed-in on Monday.

I did manage to squeeze in a VERY short trip to the gym before going out to dinner...only did a bit of cardio. I have not got into doing weights just yet - would like to shed lots of pounds before I start converting all of this fat to muscle. I do not want to be built like a bull-dog. Would rather trim down first!

I talked to a woman who is doing the same regimen as me...she was frustrated that she has plateaued with her weight loss. I asked if she was doing any cardio - of course her answer was "NO". Cardio is key! Even if you can only do a bit of speed walking to raise your heart rate, a little goes a long way! Cardio! Cardio! Cardio! It's a must do!

Days 15-21

ok...so I haven't blogged in a while. I was sick and I am still dealing with a sinus infection :( No Bueno. I am also (still) dealing with family drama and just got back from the vet and found out I had to cough up $900 because my yorkie broke a tooth and has other dental "issues" which may consist of a few extractions. Ugh!

Needless to say, beyond the stress, financial burdens and illnesses - I have managed to stay on my regimen and continue my meal replacements and weighed in yesterday at 162.4 pounds! Almost 7 pounds lighter than I was 3 weeks ago! YAY! I have worked hard at this...I started back at the gym doing cardio. A real challenge with a sinus infection. I have found that a good way to get me to the gym is to utilize my unlimited tanning. Needless to say, I now need to get my dark-ass down there by other means - I have achieved a shade of brown that is not natural even for someone who is Italian/Hispanic. I definitely do not want to look like a lady I saw running down Laguna Beach in CA who had skin that looked like leather! Need to change my focus from dark-ass to fat-ass :)

What I like about all of this so far is that my weight loss is healthy. It's dangerous if you lose more than a pound or two a week! I have also heard that if you drop tons of weight in a short amount of time, you are more prone to gaining it all back (and some). I am not sure how true that is but I don't want to test that theory either. I am happy with losing a pound or two a week. Hopefully at this rate I will have reached my goal weight loss by May! Just in time for summer!

Day 14

Today was a good day. Did the morning regimen and went to the gym (finally) - and did some cardio and tanning. Now if I can just get the motivation to do it all again tomorrow. I know cardio is going to be key to shed the pounds quick.

I am too tired to small talk tonight...

Hitting the sack!

Night Night!

Day 11 - 12 - 13

Total Weight Loss: 5 lbs

So haven't been in much of a mood to blog...too much stress has made me become a recluse - even as far as the computer is concerned. I feel pretty maxed out and even came to a point where I was ready to throw away many things out of my personal life (including relationships).

Needless to say, all the stress has not really changed my eating habits. I have stuck to my morning regimen of supplements and meal replacement shakes and have really tried to watch what I eat. I weighed in today and lost another pound. Maybe if I wasn't so lazy I would lose more. I've lost a total of 5 pounds without going to the gym since I started this quest. Maybe I will go back tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day.

I am still struggling with my sugar cravings. On Friday I am sure I looked like I was withdrawing from heroin...I was having a crazy sugar craving - it almost hurt. So strange but true. I finally went to my office and shoved a piece of sugar free gum in my mouth and chewed that gum to death! Maybe that is why I had a headache! I wish there was something I could do to stop these sugar cravings or make weening myself from sugar easier - They need to make antabuse for sugar addicts. (for those who don't know, antabuse is a prescription given to extreme alcohol addicts to help them dry out). Either way, there has got to be something that could help. I struggle with sugar cravings at least 3 times a day...and it is bad. It's indescribable, really.

Any suggestions, let me know. I know losing another pound is good - and is better than gaining - but I was hoping I had lost more...maybe next time. I just keep picturing what 5 pounds of potatoes looks likes and that is what I have shed in just under 2 weeks.

I go in on Monday (18th) to weigh-in. Keep the encouragement and suggestions coming! It does help tremendously!

Day 10

I swear, I do not understand how I can be such a strong person with no will power when it comes to food! What the hell????

So I am at work busy as can be...stressed that I cannot get one of my accounts to balance when Rosa walks in with a freshly baked (still warm) oatmeal raisin cookie from the cafeteria. UGH! Now I am negotiating with myself about how healthy the cookie is because it is made with oatmeal. NO WILL POWER!

Aside from the cookie I had my normal morning regimen for breakfast and a buffalo chicken salad for lunch. I have not eaten dinner and not sure what I want. I could really use a meal replacement shake and hope that the dishwasher finishes its cycle soon so I can use my blender that is in there.

Day 9

Ok...I am typing this without contacts or glasses on so hopefully I don't make any errors. Good way to see if you can really type.

Today was a struggle. The girls in the cafeteria made fresh bread. ahhhhh shoot me in the face! There is nothing better in this world than fresh bread. Well there are a few things better...but not many. So guess what! Today I failed totally! I had to have some bread! And now guess what! GUILT! If I could skip eating for the next 3 days to make up for it, I would. But that isn't going to happen. I just need to stay out of the cafeteria. I shouldn't eat that food anyway - it's usually loaded with carbs! I need to remember to take my lunch so I will keep my fat ass out of the cafeteria!

So......I did my normal regimen for breakfast and ate horribly for lunch. Tonight I am going to have chicken lettuce wraps - which are yummy and healthy - no carbs! YAY

Hopefully I will do better tomorrow.

Day 8

Back to work today - and I did have my struggles.

I did my morning regimen of supplements and shake and took my salad for lunch but today was inservice for the teachers at the school I work at...which meant danishes, coffee cakes and the like. I was offered some and guess what! I said NOPIE! :) That was hard because I love cheese danish. But I HATE my big ass so somethings gotta give, right?

I had a shake for dinner and the toasted coconut marshmallows dipped in chocolate are eye-balling me! When you have food cravings, do you hear it talk to you? Because I can hear them yelling "eat me! eat me!" LOL! Not really because then I would need medication and counseling...but they do look yummy! I'm not giving in though!

I really hope I make some progress for my weigh-in on Saturday!

Day 7

So today started off like every other day...supplements and meal replacement shake. For lunch I splurged a bit and had a bean burrito and a corn bread muffin (left over from NYE). I took a pill to block the fat so hopefully those work! For dinner I had another meal replacement shake.

I start work again tomorrow so I need to make sure I wake up early enough to prepare my new regimen. 5:00 am here we come! I already made a salad to take for lunch with 4 small pieces of buffalo chicken and some homemade low fat ranch. I need to get rid of the box of Gobstoppers I have in my desk at work! That is going to be a challenge - if anyone knows me they know that I love Gobstoppers (along with the half bar of Caramello...)!

It's crazy that I have now been doing this new regimen for a week and I am not tired of the shakes! It's exciting...I really love the shakes and look forward to drinking them. It helps when the things you intake actually taste good. Lord knows I hate the taste of most protein drinks! I have taken so much protein in the past that the smell makes me gag. But I cannot smell nor taste the protein in these shakes! YAY!

It has been a crazy weekend and I have not done any physical training. I am hoping I can get my butt moving tomorrow. I want to weigh in on Saturday and I need to have lost more weight to stay encouraged.

Holidays are done! Back to reality tomorrow!

Day 6

So...today was just like yesterday. I didn't feel very hungry so I had to force down a few crackers with cheese for lunch and then a shake for dinner. The bad thing is that I am now hungry for dinner and would love a big, fat, juicy steak but I had a meal replacement shake instead.

So the beat goes on. I am nervous about going back to work on Monday! That is where I eat and snack like mad! I went to the meat market and got some beef to make some jerky...that is at least a good protein filled snack that I can eat for lunch at work. By making it myself I can control the amount of sodium used and I know there are no preservatives!

The stress level is a bit lower today. We dealt with our issue and grounded a child for a long time so hopefully once she starts counseling she will be better :)

Day 5

Did not have a good start to the new year...experiencing some drama in the house and it is going to be a rough few months around here. Not a way to try to stay positive and keep a healthy perspective on my new regimen.

I still managed, through stress-induced exhaustion, to get up and take my supplements and meal replacement late this morning. During stressful times I usually don't eat much. I had to force myself to eat some crackers with cheese for lunch - just something quick to put in my stomach. Then, knowing that cheese is high in fat and crackers are loaded with sodium and carbs, the guilt surfaced and I felt like crap. Ugh! That only makes me not want to eat at all. Having been a fitness freak before, I already know that I cannot skip meals. That would be counter-productive. I know your body stores fat in times of deprivation. So - through the stress, anxiety and guilt I will get up and force down another meal replacement shake for dinner.

I was planning on going to get weighed in tomorrow to see if I had made any progress but I think I will just skip that. I need to work on some mental recuperation from all this stress and make sure I stay focused on my goal.

Thanks for reading! I really appreciate all of the positive feedback I am getting. It helps during difficult times like this.

...nothing like a "Keeping up with the Kardashians" marathon to put things in perspective...